Impulsiveness isn’t one of my traits. When there’s a decision to be made I agonize over it; I second guess every possible outcome of it; occasionally I even stay awake nights because of it.
It’s not that I don’t believe God knows what’s best for me. The problem is that I’m often slow to ask his opinion.
Is it human nature or lifelong conditioning that convinces us independence is admirable? “Stand on your own two feet.” “Think for yourself.” How often have we heard such admonitions? Only when I hit overload mode do I “take it to the Lord in prayer”. Trouble is, when I’m done praying I pick up the concern again and tote it off with me to continue fussing over. Maybe there’s something about God’s omnipotence that makes me think my everyday decisions are too petty to deserve much of his attention.
And yet now as I watch a nondescript song sparrow chowing down at our birdfeeder I am reminded that there is nothing too insignificant for God’s oversight — not a single sparrow*, nor any trivial aspect of my daily doings.
I’d get a lot more sleep if I’d act on that knowledge sooner.
* Matthew 10:29
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Superb post Careann – your best so far. 2nd guessing is 2nd nature & hindsight is always 20/20. Deb & I were just talking about that this morning. What if we had stayed in Pennsylvania? What if we had bought a different house. A lot of prayer went into our decision to make the move south & God’s guidance was clearly evident. There have been ups & downs, & we’re facing some tough decisions again lately, but there’s an unexplainable peace that comes with committing your cares to Him. (1st Peter 5:7). We may not always get what we want – but we get what we need & we’ve been very blessed, as undeserving as we may be. Now any time I act soley on impulse ….. yikes.
My husband has a favourite saying: “We may not know what tomorrow holds, but we know Who holds our tomorrows.” When times get tough it’s very reassuring to remember that.